Reverse Sundowners
Most days I wake up going 100mph. This has a strain on my personal and professional relationships. My wife likes to call it Reverse Sundowners, because I generally get better as the day goes on. Some days, though, this is not the case. Today has been one of those rare cases where I cannot stop my mind, my mouth, or my emotions. It is nearing midnight and I'm ready to set the night sky ablaze and breathe smoke like some weak ass, white boy dragon. I am hoping that venting here will help me shake this shit off tonight. Because on days like this, I tend to lash out at people. Or feel ignored. I take things personally, directly, and without reasonable thought for doing so. This might narcissism or maybe I have some serious fucking trauma, but I care little enough for my physical self that I don't care fully that all of my emotional or psychological needs are met. That is why I scream into the void that is the internet. That is why I vague post. If you think you are happy. truly hap